As it is

I haven't written for a long long time; was busy being swept away by the tides of destiny. Its not as if i was unaware of what was happening around me but somehow there is a feeling of being controlled by an authority beyond comprehension. Sometimes I wonder what factors control my current state of mind. I know there will be many but I am still to identify any.

The only observation that I am able to make is my mind's acceptance of any state is inversely proportional to the time length of that state. Accepting this, I need to search for the causes. One obvious and I should say a superficious cause, seems to be my habit of procrastination. Deeper analysis may reveal something more fundamental and may also help me getting rid of this conundrum. The demons of self-doubt however eat up all light of knowledge. But wait a minute, should this not be my aim just to lay these demons to rest.

This was in my drafts for more than 2 months. I think it has little chance of getting completed, so publishing it as it is.