There are times when I sit in front of the computer and fingers just start typing. Thoughts have words with well defined meanings and are eager to make their journey from my mind to this console. Those are the days when everyone and everything around makes sense, good or bad is a separate matter. When I know I am Ashish and Ashish has his joys, sorrows, ambitions, doubts, plans, dreams, fantasies, friends, relatives, life. All these things are present and purposeful just like the background music of a movie. You hardly notice it, but its always there. Remove it and there's an eerie haunting silence.
And there are days when its confusing. When I know I am Ashish but I do not know what it means? I cannot say its a doubt, confusion or fear, because its something language (or at least my knowledge of it) fails to capture. The feeling is so flimsy that words dilute it, sounds mute it, and a search obscures it. Its like being restricted in a cell, when you know there's something beyond but don't know what. Or like living in absolute darkness and being comfortable with it for most of the time.
I think everyone experiences something similar, in inexplicitness if not in description. And everyone has his/her own solution. Some run away from it by engaging themselves in other simpler things, answering simpler questions, some others close their eyes towards it to deny its existence, a few try to face it, look for answers. For most the subtleness is too hard to perceive, and the comfort comes by associating it with all kinds of things.
The question that I have, with no definite answer, is what should I do, if anything at all?
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The question that I have, with no definite answer, is what should I do, if anything at all?
Is it a rhetorical question or are you seeking expert comments/advice? :P :-D
Bhai tu kabhi kabhi non-serious issues pe kuch kyon nahi likhta? For example write a composition for a change on the topic of "how often I feel while skiing my ass off a cliff top" ;-) What say you?
Oye hero ur blog got featured in my blog ! Congrats :D ..Now i m going to market ur blog :) ....Waise one thing u really write great ..Once in a while if i feel like finding some content for my ever wanderng mind n soul ...ur blog can be one spot i would like to come !
You know what i do, Just Eat :D
Try it out... could help !!
meanwhile... could not have put the what to do feeling in better words :)
Anu
Rhetorical. "satya i khoj" karne ka time abhi nahi aaya hai.. :P Still expert comments/advice are always welcome.
Non-serious topic bahut fight hai yaar.. I'm non-serous when I do not think and its tough to write without thinking :)
waise, I took to skiing as fish to water... girna toh bahut fight hai.. touchwood :D
Aabhas
Thanks, dude.
Will read yours for sure.
pika
Sahi solution hai.. mere jaise almost underweight bande ko toh double fayda hoga..
Hey...read ur couple of blogs...u write great...was in a not so good mood of mine, when I came across the link to ur blogs..and they have cheered me up in some way...as could relate to them very well. Now I've got one more blog link to check from time to time...will be looking forward to ur next posting.
hey!! hmmnn...very well written...couldnt have worded it any better...i could sooo relate to wat you said!! there are times wen anything and everything seems so impercptible!! and worst is you cant even decipher wat to do bout it...wat i do at such times?? i question, i search for answers...wen i dont find any i get frustrated!!...then jjust forget about it...maybe after sometime things fall back in place...maybe they don't...but i mostly read at such times...no offence to pika...but i never indulge in eating!!
anonnymous
You are in real good company in feeling "it" (above replies are the proof). The knowledge of "not being the only one" kind of eases the pain, aint it ?
Yashita
Dont't worry about Pika. He is one of the rare ones who are able to find happiness in simpler things of life :P
Just seek company of such people when you feel low. All your "negativities" will get evaporated.
Have you ever thought abt silencing all thought -- give it a try --
Its amazing how long it takes to shake free of the thoughts that keep whizzing past your mind!!
Perhaps The Answer is hidden somewhere deep within.
Good luck all along :D
"The question that I have, with no definite answer, is what should I do, if anything at all?"
Even if people try and look for answers I don't think they ever get any infact they end up with some more questions which at times are even more wierd I guess...give it a try and you will know :)
Nav
I have never been able to do so. In fact, I do not want to. Thoughts are my dearest friends, why should I scare them away :P
anonymous
I'll always prefer to believe that the answers are elusive rather than non-existent :)
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